My Struggle

I decided to start writting this blog because I need to talk to someone, let something out somewhere. My family doesnt really know what I am going through if at all and my close friends dont get it and are busy.

I suffer from secondary infertility. I didnt know this existed until it happened to me. We had our daughter 4 years ago without much trouble ( 8 months after getting married I got pregnant) but since then nada. I am sure some people are thinking well at least you have one child ( that is what my mom says). I love my daughter with all my heart and I think G-d sent me the best but... I expected to give her siblings right? cause once you have one shouldnt the others come also. IT is having that expectation shattered that hurts alot. Once you have one how could you not want to have more.

If I had suffered to get her I think I would feel different..maybe.